I had to admit, I was a little…blindsided by The Mistress Han's bold persistence of The Young Master Nam, and it hurt me more than i thought it would at this point, But I really didn't know how much I missed him until I saw him again in his bedroom after a month with The Mistress Han' hanging onto him as usual and trying to feed him with something homemade. And he really did look so uncomfortable, so I deliberately knocked over a new vase that The Concubine Choi herself had just gifted herself a few days ago to get their attention as soon as she left to chase after The Third Prince who was really not happy with her and had just stormed off. But the minute that my eyes connected with him, I could just feel more resentment coming off of him, more than what I had for the entire situation, and I had no idea why. He was the one who abandoned me out of nowhere, so why was he angry at me? What could I have possible done to hurt him when he still went straight to his new mistress after his work in the palace, all the servants couldn't stop talking about it when I went to fetch some snacks for him in the kitchen. But for some unknown reason, the tensions between us was much higher than it ever had been in our lives and I was unable to stop staring at him, even when I approached him and sat myself opposite him. He had lost a little weight, though his face was still as handsome as ever. And it looked like he hadn't slept for a while either. He needed to bathe badly and he needed to eat, who knows how these redundant maids still didn't know how to look after a young man. And neither did the The Mistress Han' who was completely oblivious to Seon-Ho 's disgusted face path whoever luxury food item she was waving in front of her face.
"Yeon! How dare you! Do you have any idea how much that vase cost me and you just…" "The Young Master had just bathed for the first time in a while after spending an entire month working away. He should be resting after having a full meal and a tea to help him get some sleep. He should not be dealing with such a huge pile of paperwork so soon. Mistress Han, you proclaim your love for him over and over again, to the point where you have feuded filial piety. But are you really so clueless as to not notice that whatever it is that you are trying to make him eat is making him feel nauseous?" I was supposed to stay as the meek and timid hostage of this home, but Seon-Ho's behaviour now more than ever was making me angry at him for still walking down the path that his father was dangling in front of him, instead of rising up against him for my brother's sake…and mine. He was capable of it, I know he was…so what was taking him so long? What was really wrong with him now?
"Golden Dates are especially served as a refreshment snack for the nobility after work. It has undergone a complicated process of steaming and frying and it isn't as sweet as real dates, it only resembles its appearance…." "So it is an expensive snack, is that correct?" "Of course it is…" "Then Mistress Han, you must have not been aware that the Emperor himself is promoting frugality of late, due to the tensions between himself and the Chinese government, which could result in war any day now. And yet here you are, looking down on other's for their ignorance of dainty items." I was beyond tired of pretending I was an ignorant happy go lucky little girl as I had no choice but to be for most of my life. And the mere sight of The Mistress Han still hanging cluelessly onto Seon-Ho was only firing me up even more. And the cherry on too of this situation was that Seon-Ho's facial expression didn't change at all like it used to all of the time when he saw me. Inserted, he just looked at my skirt motionlessly, as if he was simply trying to keep himself awake on purpose.
"Well if you are so considerate of the people, you should go back to dressing up the commoner you really are and go farming 'to help the nation." "I would gladly do so…" "Do not even think about it! She will never dress that way again!" That little outburst shook us all up, even The concubine Park and his sister-in-law, who were just eating in peace and quiet compared to all of the noise that i was making. I didn't understand why my past life bothered him so much that one little comment would set him off like that, to the point where he ordered my new servant that my brother gave me to burn the my old garments in his fireplace immediately. He even threatened to whip her for every single minute she would delay this 'order' of his. And he knew I made up the whole thing about the conflict between the two countries, but he seemed to want to play along anyways.
"Yeon is right, nobody has such leisurely time on their hands during these conflicted times, and anyone who does should go to work on a farm to share the countries burdens. Soldiers like myself are constantly risking their lives on the battlefield dauntlessly. But to see unsympathetic people continuously living their lives with such…leisure is simply vile and unfilial. Your Ladyship has already committed such an act once, I really do wonder how many times you will do it? You are not even taking my own reputation into account; if I continue to associate myself with such mindless people, I will no longer have any face to work in the palace at all. We enjoy such good food as benevolence from the soldiers, and you dare to mock them?" "But I…I didn't! I didn't mean to! Of course the soldiers risk their lives and their limbs everyday…" "Yeon, to what do I owe this rare visit?" "You haven't been taking care of yourself like I said and…" "and how does that concern you exactly? Since when did you start caring about me again!" "Since I have been making sure that your other servants pegged your books with leaf book marks that I made and dried for you personally so you don't cut your fingers on the books that you still read for hours. So I also switched your lanterns oil with hazelnut oil so you do not harm your eyes reading throughout the night. Have you even noticed the dwarf sedge to absorb the smoke so it doesn't harm your health. I do everything for you since my first day here and not only do you not notice, you also demand so much from me and I have no idea why when you ignore me half the time! And…" "And I suppose you are the one who repeatedly washed my new garments so that I could feel more comfortable wearing them. I am also having much more egg dishes than my father allows me to have and I am now enjoying dessert this year for the first time in my life."
He interrupted me amidst my rant on purpose once again and he left me positively seething on the floor. It was very obvious that despite his own rage against his father, he had most definitely inherited a lot of his…quirks and t had noticed that he really liked to make me angry. It was probably due to he fact that he had never seen me emit these negative emotions before and now this year in particular, it was like he lived to rile me up when he didn't confuse me with his indirect words. But I wasn't a puppet of his that he could string along anytime he wanted to. So I completely lost my temper this time out of nowhere and I destroyed everything I saw in sight in his office when I got up and walked out f there. And that jerk just sat there and laughed, he really laughed for the first time and he laughed himself silly. He was practically rolling around on the floor when a senior official who must have been disturbed by me came in and punished me to kneel onto the ground for the rest of the night. HBut Seon-ho didn't defend me this time, in fact, I could tell that he took great pleasure in having me alone in front of him with no more distractions. But before I could move an inch, Seon-Ho stood in front of me and actually sat down so close to me that I could feel his breath on my neck. But I couldn't escape now; I had fallen into his trap and I had to face him…
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Yeon was a fiery little thing when she go angry, and it was a real pleasure to watch her not only loose her temper and do things that I couldn't do at the moment because I was stuck between everyone in my life. I loved seeing the effect that I solely had on her that I knew for a fact she would not have for anyone else. I could always use her old crush on me against her that she acted like she didn't even remember, but she always managed to evade it by leaving me alone with The Mistress Han. So I changed my tactics and I had been trying to make her break that cool and calm composure that she always wore. I certainly couldn't make any mistakes now or lash out, because if I did, then everyone in my life would be hurt in some way or another. But I had Yeon to lash out for me, which felt great when she took the most obnoxious items in my room that constantly reminded me of the nobility class that first motivated me to commit the sins I did to get to where I am. And now, I wanted nothing to do with it at all. And it was thanks to The Mistress Han that I felt this way; the sheer amount of wealth that she had with how dense she really was…it was putting me off the aims of my goals. And just when I had realised it, it was already far too late to take everything back. The Concubine Choi had won Hui-Jae over as an ally of her's in the palace where she should have died for her crimes years ago, most likely with the promise of making her my concubine once this imaginary wedding of ours took place. As for Yeon's brother, he was already furious that Yeon's existence had been exposed to the palace that was hell-bent on keeping her here, as was i. But it looked like my activities with The Mistress Han was affecting Yeon…I think she got jealous and that is why she had been hiding herself from me. But she was here now in front of me and I had the pleasure to keep her close to me for a few hours, no matter how angry she was.
But I couldn't have my long-awaited fun yet as we were no completely alone, so I was able to take my time with this in a time where my mind was completely scattered into pieces. I had absolutely no shame in undressing right in front of her as I ordered another servant of mine in Hui-Jae's absence to fill up my bath for me this time, because I knew she was going to do everything wrong and I could enjoy watching Yon squirm on the spot if something didn't go her way. She had always bossed myself and her brother again when she could and now it was only of late when I had started to realise that some of her personality traits hadn't changed at all, like keeping secrets of her accident from me. So I could only provoke Yeon into telling me herself, if there was anything to confess that was. After everything I had done for the girl, I would very much like to hope that she wasn't keeping any secrets from me. But at the same time, I wasn't in any position to be angry at her if she did, and that was messing with me as well.
Yeon was still squirming on the spot after downright blushing at the sight of me naked…but she didn't even look away. And she certainly didn't even move an inch from the floor to take a look at me even though she knew I was bathing in almost cold water. I had absolutely no idea what on earth she was angry at me about, but I had my ways to find out everything I needed to know. I just never thought I would use here ways on Yeon of all people, but what choice was she giving me right now?