His voice was filled with sorrow. "I thought the conflicts between us were purely because I've hurt you before. I thought making amends would suffice... but I never anticipated that after hurting you so many times, I'd end up causing you pain again."
"I must not really love you... If I did, how could I possibly hurt you again?" His faith in his ability to love was waning.
The woman he deemed so strong in his mind was, in essence, just a delicate lady, whom he could easily control physically. As a man, why would he be so ruthless to a woman?
What if it wasn't an ectopic pregnancy? What if Tilly Flower was really carrying his child?
Then what he had caused to be lost would have been the biological offspring between him and Tilly Flower.
