So i am starting from where i remember ...
I was invited in the ceremany so i went there for some reason knew that what was waitng there for me. The sitting arrangment was more like school prayer assembly like at first they all were sitting like one row all ladies one row all family than other like that. I met few of my college frns one of them had shown up with her twin i even mistook as her. But when i went for sitting he came out of nowhere n started to make space for him ,our eyes he still had that complicated expression on him , i looked at jom as well but stayed indifferent.First he came to sit in fronto me then moved to side row . More people came afterward . I still had no id cea that wth my..'my' school fellows were there . Lines started to get long and both of us wre separating. He again moved just behind me. Then ceremany started n weird part was that that he was anchoring this. He stand up then announced but his brother marriage and the fiancee. Then he said he also getting engaged as well then a grl came. I really didnt know how i felt at that moment for some reason hes going tp be was related to me so he called my name first then introduced her. I just got heartattack then disppointment as well .
Its been so many says ..i even forgot details but lets continue anyways...
Then a beatiful grl came out..i stared at her for a while then ceremany continued and ended announcment now people started scattering . I had a heavy feeling over my heart , i wanted to cry n scream alone n i was sitting and lost in the thoughts staring at things as dont want people to notice i am sad. After a while i got up starting walking upstair to get some fresh air n lighten up my mood people i was passin by could hear their murmurs but not clear words ,can see them but not their faces i dont know who they r i was jus walking slowly upstairs without lookin back...the crowd become less as i went up i just wanted to go at roof . The stairs started to become rough n broken i was literally staggering thier wre jus two stairs up n then roof but then i got pushed by a shoulder n i lost balanced i accepted my faith didnt struggled much but some one helding my hand from a stair up ...i opened my eyes ..it was him again. He walked with me upstairs . He asked me if i want to tell him sonething . He asked again n again playing with words n asking the same thing i stAmmered ..there was a knot in my throat i wanted to cry hug him tell him everything i gather upall the courage n open up to say jus then the dream break
I thought a lot after i wake up if he was gettin engaged for real then why he was still askin me if i say i love him, will he accept me or say sorry or jus going to say its too late or say i liked the grl i engaged my anxiety took my best but over time like i said i forgot the details but not feel the story the situation the sadness my urge to confess the knot in throat everything like i have lived the moment ...
Today i returned here to tell that his brother is getting engaged what should i do ...should i confess to him ? A week or ten days ago when i was coming back home from my nanis home i was thinking about him on whole ride actually i was sad that day, more than half of route we have crossed, i didnt speak a word more need the whether was confusing that day not a drop of water till the moment sky was surrounded by light clouds there was no sunlight it was only once rain in this year then at i felt a water drop on my face it felt so good as it was new rain after summer i looked at sky n said if drop a more drop of water over me if i will confess to him n it rained heavily in within 10 seconds i was dumbfounded i was jus staring at wet road after that.... it was fucking real incident . But i was serious at that time i really decided to tell him after going home but the very nxt day he left for tour so its been ten days he still didnt return what should i do should i give up but can i.....i am keepin all to myself can really forget or give up or i should confess