Lucien clearly hadn't thought through what he wanted to do before acting. What had driven him was pity for the woman—he'd assumed she was simply seeking shelter for herself and her children.
He'd planned to help her and then head into the city, knowing he'd be dissatisfied with himself if he didn't act.
However, this entire situation left him confronting something shocking about himself.
'I was selfish and stupid.'
From a young age, Lucien had lived a sheltered existence. Even when he attended school—the only environment that could have helped him understand society better—he didn't experience it like other people did.
In fact, it was more accurate to say school attended him than he attended school.
He was born with a reclusive nature. He was hyper-observant of people, and because of this, Lucien couldn't make friends. His word choices were bizarre, his speech pattern twisted as though he suffered from information overload and couldn't properly process anything.