It's been two days since I passed out and from what Sarah said, she had come to my room wondering if she should bring me dinner, only to find me covered in blood crying and having a seizure. She wanted to run for help but I stopped her saying i was fine and just needed to rest a bit. I asked her to keep it a secret for me, so she helped change my sheets and nursed me all night long.
My body would burn hot for hours and then feel as cold as ice. She thought I would die that night as I was unconscious for 24 hours. No one in the house bothered to check why I was unseen for 24 hours..... what a joke.
After waking up I was too scared of what might happen to me so I hid the book In a box and kept it in a secure space in my closet.
Right now I'm on my way to the palace for my second visit with the prince and I'm more excited to visit the library than meeting the ice prince. I brought the book with me, as I want to know more about the author of the book and I also want to read more on magic. I want to find out if someone else has ever experienced what I did two days ago. After waking up my heart feels like it's full and when I concentrate just a little, I feel a warm liquid spreading from my heart and filling my body.
Getting to the palace and the prince didn't bother coming to see me today. The attendant looked like he was having a hard time, so I excused myself and went to the library.
I searched for 30 minutes and still didnt find another book by the author crone. I'm guessing he used a fake name or he only published one book. I let out a loud sigh and decided to stay in a corner today and continue reading. I picked out a book about magic for beginners.
Mana is normally stored in the mana heart, when a chant is said and that mana is used directly from the mana heart. The mana is then converted to magic circle which is then used as a type of fuel for the magic from the chant.
It's supposed to be simple, 'conversion and use'.
Mages are normally classed from 1st circle mage, meaning they can only form 1 circle at a time to be used for mana output, up to the 9th circle mage.
After that we have high mages, grand mages and a separate tier of mages known as sages or transcendent mages. The book doesnt elaborate on the difference between these 3 tiers or what makes them special from the other 9.
Reading this book is boring, so maybe I should take a peek at that book again. It almost feels like a cursed book now. Leaning against the wall for support I suddenly slip and fall backwards hitting my head on the floor. Opening my eyes, I see I'm half way into a dark small space.
It's probably a secret passage used by royals to escape. But it was so dusty and dark like no one had been down there in forever.
Lights suddenly flicker on and i see it's not a passage but a small room. It's covered in dust room and cobwebs. The air is thick, stuffy and smells pungent. I block my nose with my hands as i can barely breathe. It had a table and chair at the corner and a single bookshelf with just 3 books. The walls were covered in markings of what looked like magic circles like the ones in had seen in the magic books.
If I was to go in would I find treasure or would I regret it? I have never been a daredevil and with this small body, if I get trapped in here it would mean death. I'm scared but I want to take a look. Taking small strides I walk towards the shelf. I stumbled slightly bumping into a wall and the entrance slams shut. I bolt to the entrance pounding and screamimg but my screams only echoe back in the room. Coughing slowly as dust fills the room.
Well I'm already in here might as well explore if I'm going to die anyway.
Transcendent magic 2,3,4 and a book without a name, but the pages were blank.
This must have been crone's work place. Then that means he might have been an imperial mage.
Skimming through all 4 volumes it talks about crazy types of magic that one could not normally imagine. I may not know much about magic but if magic like this existed then this world would be leaps and bounds more advanced than this.
What if this crone was a reincarnator just like myself? And in his delusions and heartbreak decided to write crazy things that don't exist.
I can't believe I got trapped here looking for some crazy treasure. Is this where I'm going to die?
Dusting the books and cradling them in my hands I head towards the exit.
Rooms like these always have a way to open and shut them and its usually a loose stone on the walls . This was the spot I stumbled, pushing on the individual blocks with trembling hands, one block moves backwards and the entrance opens. I sigh in relief and chuckle slightly... i guess i dont die today.
Either this crone was a really short person or they just enjoyed kicking the bricks open and shut.
Now I know how to open and close this space maybe it could be my own refuge, my own secret spot.
Dusting my gown of cobwebs....' maybe i should do some cleaning first'
My own safe space, I smile as I hug the books in my hands gently.
Maybe I can learn magic here. Dropping the books I close the entrance again.
I take a deep breath close my eyes and try to feel the warmth I can feel my heart slowly expand, so I open my eyes hurriedly, breathing heavily.
My hands and feets were trembling as fear of what happened 2 days ago hold me.
I'm scared... I'm traumatized....I'm so scared..... but... but..... I feel i can do it this time.
Taking another deep breath, I lift my trembling hands, closing my eyes my heart pounding louder and louder, and then I feel it a warm liquid spreads from my heart filling up entire body.
I imagine a warm fire not hot, not burning but comfortable. Opening my eyes I'm astonished by what's in front of me, a small ball of fire was in my hand it wasn't yellow,red or orange but an icy blue color. I felt like the longer i stared at it, the faster it would consume me, but I would happily let it.
'Magic' i made magic happen. I feel the tears coming but I didn't cry. The flame goes out and this time I open my eyes and imagine a hot red flame and a ball of fire appears.
Opening the first volume I want to try everything, I have magic now. After failing over and over again, I'm finally the female lead with magic. And it's mine, I have a secret room to practice and my family will not take interest in me enough to notice a change in me. For the first time in so long I'm so happy.... I'm so happy I could cry.
I stayed in the secret room for who knows how long practicing different types of magic. Ice, fire,water,wind and earth. Breathing heavily as the sweat began to pool. It seems I'm at my limit,as my heart feels heavy and my hands were trembling. The heavy air in here doesnt help either.
Using some cleaning tools from the library i dust around reaching as high as I could, its not great and the room is filled with so much dust now. I cough out of the room leaving the door open just long enough for the room to air out.
"My lady you seem so happy"
Smiling brightly at Sarah as we ride the carriage on our way home.
" I guess good things can also happen to me" although the prince didn't bring the salvation I needed. I found comfort in something else, something that I can achieve all on my own. It's a type of salvation only i can give to me.