Honestly though, she's so beautiful that I can't take my eyes off her...
It's been 10 days since I started being aware of my feelings and self deprivation didn't help 1 bit just like the other things that didn't.
But honestly... Her friends are so beautiful & handsome.
She's got a truck load of friends who are good looking dudes and Beautiful women aswell.
Why... Is someone like me even in her following list.
People would probably laugh seeing someone like me is being followed by her.
She posts alot actually.
I get to see aa photo every day.
I'm nobody but a stalker stalking her after knowing I like her.
All her photos, Are her being beautiful and her friends.
She's never... Posted anything related to me.
She has a lot of posts with this guy with blue hair.
He's handsome, tall and looks like he's rich aswell.
A perfect match for her, unlike me...
Wow, I'm a weird kinda loser aren't I? What would she probably say when she knew I stalk her Insta every day.
She'd probably be disgusted.
She has posted a lot of pictures.
While I on the other hand... Don't have any.
I don't have any pictures at all.
Not that I have any intention of taking any.
But, seeing her so close to that guy... Makes me wanna post one aswell.
She likes all his stuff too... Do you think she'll like mine.
I did have a reel of a practice session...
...
5 Hours and she hasn't liked it... No wonder though, this barely had any likes.
Most of the lines are from Indians who are probably cricket fans aswell.
That guy in the other hand...
He just posted a picture and hour ago and it's already got a million times more likes than mine.
This guys a celebrity isn't he?
He's got over a million followers.
She's liked it aswell...
Haa... What was I thinking haha, there's no way I ever stood a chance...
She didn't like my post that came in 5 hours ago but liked his which came in just 1 hour ago?
Haa... Whatever, I'm acting like an actual loser now.
I'd better stop and get some sleep.
...
Argh... What a shitty dream...
I wish I hadn't slept.
It might just be true, god really might hate me at this point.
Why'd you have to give me this reality check right after I fall in love with her.
Should have done it maybe 3 years ago. It's kinda mortifying how these things turn out.
Fuck this... I'll just delete the picture.
If only I'd just walked on my own, if only her friend hadn't shown up.
If only I hadn't transmigrated and just died after getting a bullet in the head.
Than... I'd have not have to go through the same damn shit again.
Let's just delete it and forget about it all.
"..."
Ha... Haha... Hahahaha, what is this? Why'd ya like it Mary?
Why'd you have to like it just when I was giving up...
Dumbass ya even commented.
[Looking cool]
Looking cool? Why'd ya day that...
Tho in not taking any hints from this... It just makes it harder for me to not like you...
I know there's no chance in hell, I know that I'll probably suffer alot liking you, I know you are way Outta my league but damn...
What can I do, when liking you makes me feel so damn happy and fulfilled.
I know these happy go merry days won't last a week when she knows I like her... That's even more reason to hide it from her.
If she ever knows about it, We'd probably never talk again.
Though this might seem creepy to some people since, I like someone and I'm hiding it from them and acting normal.
To me, who's never had a friend like her before...
I'd much rather kill the emotions I have than Destroy such a relationship just for meager, worthless Delusions.
Which I'm sure will always remain as such.
...
.now that I've calmed down... I just realised there isn't that much time left until the beginning of the 3 match series against Japan.
For the next 2 Months, my schedule will be packed with matches and travelling.
First japan, than France and finally Sweden.
Expect for Japan I don't think there'll be any team that'd probably be asking tough.
I'm currently 24, and coming close to 25.
That'd mean I have time until 38 where I can play cricket for.
Than... I'll have to retire.
If it were my old country, I'd either have enough money to lavishly take a retirement or I'll get a govt job on sports quota.
But, well... That's impossible in this country since Cricket isn't well recognised.
It's the year 2027 which means that there are about 3 World cups I can participate in if we get in.
6 test championships, 6 Asia Cups, 3 Champions trophies, 6 T20 World Cup trophies.
That's about it.
But... The thing is, if it were based on qualifying than... The time it'd take us to play a world cup would be... Around 5 yeàrs from now.
That's how much time it'll need for us to perfect our skills at the level at which teams like Australia, England & India are on.
England did have a rough patch until 2 years years ago but since than they have been looking Invincible.
Right now... For the 2027 WC that's about to take place 5 Months from now in October the likely candidates for the WC look like, It's either India, Australia, England but the dark horses would be Afghanistan, Sri Lanka.
South Africa have a great chance of winning it since it's their home.
But except for that, maybe Pakistan if they... Stop playing like they have never touched a bat before.
But, it appears that the youngsters are picking up quite well so who knows.
And last but not least would be... Usa.
Yup, they have a good American core right now on top of that a new dude called Adam Staulls entered the frey and is taking the American Cricket it new heights.
He's Alan Kim's Brother, he got the name Kim from his mother while Staulls came from Adam's father.
These 2 have no background in cricket, they just married each other and produced 2 Talents.
One of which is a batsman and the other a bowler. Apparently he joined the Korean team because he wants to best his brother.
That's why they are both playing for underdog teams.
Being a part of countries which have no background in cricket.
It's a mystery how these 2 even started cricket.
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